well hello hi there

Alright, bot-free existence as of now. And hey, it only took me, like, 5h? Cheesus.

There’s also something that I noticed….. sooo, apparently I’ve been acting like my usual idiotic self infront of over 100 people…. and that makes me overwhelmed and a bit uneasy… mostly bc I’ve never realized it ‘¬¬… hahhaa…sorry. Another thing that I observed is that some of people’s interests have “moved on” and I wanted to say:

please don’t feel bad unfollowing me. Ever.

so yeah, basically…. I don’t know what to say. Love you..? Well, I don’t know most of you guys enough for that, but… you all have interesting blogs, so… Let’s chat sometime..? … ahhmmm… yeah. Let’s go with that one.

Let’s chat sometime! ^0^/

heads up

Well, a porn blog reblogging my doodles and adding a “nice” caption made me think: 1st why? and 2nd I’ll be on a blocking spree today.

Ffs. I could be doing smth more productive or pleasant, but nohohooo… damn those bots.

So I dug through my old files recently in order to pinpoint the time when I actually stopped drawing (seems to be 2013), and found this one. A la Mark Crilley’s 100 different manga eyes challenge.

I still find it crazy how much effort I was able to put into drawing anything… hope to regain that spirit soon.

Btw, I’m curious, which manga do you recognize??

talking to myself.

Something horrifying happened today at work, and I‘ve got no one else to blame than me. In the recent weeks I’ve been spreading myself too thin, a bad habit of mine. Between my work, my mother’s company/clients, my sister’s drama of the day, insomnia’s return, tight drawing schedule that I made for myself and wanted to keep no matter what, I became negligent.

I won’t neglect the people around me, and I don’t want to neglect my drawing, but it’s becoming impossible for me to keep up with everything, especially when I don’t get enough sleep.

I need a schedule/deadline for drawings/projects that I can orient myself on, but the current one seems impossible for me to keep. So, I’m giving myself more lee-way.

– I will NOT stress myself over a missed daily scribble, and will take the time of commute to nap when I need to. I made the rule of dailies for myself because initially I needed that kick; not anymore.
– From now on, the b-day drawings will be posted not on the day, but with a flexibility of a week (I love the characters and really want to draw them all at least once)
– Merlin au will go up once a month, on the 24th. (I’ll adjust that if/when I feel like I can do more)
– Independent doodles or requests are not included in this schedule, but if I can’t finish something within a day I’ll drop it.

I’m trying to stay sane right now, and making adjustments in my schedule calms me down. I never know my own limits until something goes wrong, but I learn. And next time, hopefully, the one to suffer from my mistakes won’t be someone else.